It's time to get REAL, and it makes me feel ENERGIZED!!

I feel so different today! So amazingly ENERGIZED!

I've decided to get a little more personal here on my blog. More like a diary type of writing, regarding my personal development.

There's a difference between knowing what is real, and actually living it - and I have a strong side that has always tried to destroy my goals and intentions. Call it ego if you like. It is what it is. One side is always working for my best interest, and the other side to fight my best interest. This constant internal battle field have been in me most of my life.

Here are two examples, just so it gets clear how this can work.
1)I decide I want to lose weight, and feel really motivated, I end up eating too much, or start craving chips to the point that I "have to" eat some (or a lot) or else I get cranky.
2) I decide I want to start painting again, and really look forward to it - but then I start doing house cleaning, log on to facebook, start doing something totally different (anything really).
I have a strong self sabotager in me. That's the current fact.

The great 10.10.10 I had yesterday - and all the wonderful vibes from that day might be what is working big time in me today, triggering this. Yet also - I am so inspired because last night I watched the hour long third session youtube vid Lilou Mace did with Freeman Michaels this weekend. It was exactly what I needed: I have so much integration to do! So much acceptance work! I realized soo much of what I have to work on!
For instance I have to acccept my self sabotager by observing it instead of just being in it's self sabotaging nature. I have to embrace my inner child a lot more, and the strong rebel in me - so they work FOR me, not against me! The self sabotager is a a collection of neglected, "pushed-under-the-rug" parts of me, and those parts need to be acknowledged.

I've also decided to make intentions for the day in a journal each morning, so I program myself to focus on what I want to do and manifest. Each morning!



There's so much going on inside me today, that I even struggle finding the words to describe it all, LOL I just wanted to share that I'm getting more REAL than ever, and that I feel energized just by knowing about it!

I will share what I'll do, my challenges and "way to go's", and what I realize as I do this work. So much of my life need that I make huge changes. Since the outside world/the Matrix is a direct reflection of my inside that is where all the work needs to be done, so my intention and drive are aligning for that in a much stronger way now!
I HAVE DECIDED TO TRANSFORM MY LIFE!!!

Real intention vibes are flowing out from my very core!
~ Aina ~